My move to Labrador was haphazardly handed to me in the form of a public health and epidemiology internship on tuberculosis. Without a steady supervisor or income, consistent accommodations, rides to work and some heavy personal baggage, I felt rather bewildered at my fortune which, in recent times had proven to be rather bleak. But to my surprise, sometimes the worst times help remind you that better times are just around the corner all it took was to redirect my attention from the negative experiences I felt I needed to carry around with me.
Labrador was and continues to be the biggest blessing of my life. It did so many things solely because of its geographic location. First, it removed me far from the vicinity of all things familiar and threatening. This helped give me the opportunity to escape feelings of rejection, disappointment and gave me the chance to process the events of my life without added pressures. Second, it placed me in the center of my own universe, where everything I did was for me. I no longer had to live up to anyone else’s expectation and did things I wanted to do without fear or repercussions. And lastly, I was given the luxury of endless adventure in the outdoors which has been the biggest therapy and timeout.
I think it’s worthwhile to reflect on the life lessons I was afforded through action. I learned from Ghana that experiences that surpass the boundaries of ethical treatment, all those that are involved realize the immorality of the action how one chooses to respond then speaks volumes about the person involved. From my break-up, I learned that certain actions are unforgivable and hard to digest. From the M debacle, I learned that actions do not happen in a vacuum and therefore their consequences often have rippling and long-lasting impacts. The consequence can be felt by all those emotionally attached.
I’d like to write and reflect on the experiences I had and also detangle them and learn to make peace with them. It’s different when you just talk about the events; the implications of actions and the dire consequences I’ve had to endure as a result of actions now requires me to learn to untangle these tight knots. And once they are untangled, I must learn to part with them in a healthy way. One thing I know deep down to my core is that every difficult experience has a silver lining and that we can always make a fortune from out misfortunes. All it takes is patience, time and a commitment to ourselves.